The following is the opinion of the writer only

I'm going to try and give this blog a new direction. I've been glancing back at my first entries and I've been pretty embarrassed... They're kind of random and weird. That tends to be the case with most of my journals so I'm not all that surprised: I'll start out trying to be deep and ponderous but end up looking silly.

Honestly, I feel I am thoughtful. I mean, I enjoy thinking about things. I enjoy philosophizing. But the times I'm most deep are the times I'm not trying to be deep. Which is the way it should be. Because what's it mean to be 'deep' anyway? It means having substance--not being shallow. It means having a personality that's more than meets the eye.

There's no way to make yourself deep. Not really. All you can really do is be an interesting person...think about various things, pick up varied talents, and then, ultimately, don't sell yourself off like a cheap whore. Don't be so dependent on others that you feel the need to disclose everything about yourself to anyone you meet.

If there's one thing I learned in Junior High, it's that you shouldn't exist for other people. Popularity is worth sh*t.

That's not carte blanc to be a self-centered prig though. I mean, you shouldn't brush other people's opinions off merely because they didn't generate from you. I'm not saying that at all. I'm just saying that a person's self-perception and self-worth should exist independent of our peers.

For the rest of this entry I feel like mentioning some of my favorite words and their definitions.


Sough v. 1. To make a soft, low sighing or rustling sound, as the wind.

Fey adj.
1. a. Having or displaying an otherworldly, magical, or fairylike aspect or quality: “She's got that fey look as though she's had breakfast with a leprechaun” (Dorothy Burnham).
b. Having visionary power; clairvoyant.
c. Appearing touched or crazy, as if under a spell.
Scots.
2. a. Fated to die soon.
b. Full of the sense of approaching death.
[Middle English feie, fated to die, from Old English fge.]

Pule v. 1. To whimper; to whine.

Gloaming n. 1. Twilight; dusk.
[Gloaming comes from Old English glomung, from glom, "dusk."]